THIN vs FAT

guyssss!

guess what i've seen from my peer's usual forwarded mail? well you can see it for yourself. I hope you will be able to define the beauty of being fat or fleshy.

this is a good shot. i feel the intention behind it is actually promoting the beauty of being fleshy than being so bony.

hmmm. the disillusion of bony beauty.

if fats were to be stuffed inside her, the situation would change. the bones just spoilt it all.

her head is too beautiful to be resting on an freaking thin body full of visible bones.

no figure at all. again, bones add no curves to her. must she starve herself until like this? i'm beginning to feel sorry for her. i aint being sarcastic but feel that she should deserve a better body!

u know what i'm gonna say right? yeah bony body. so bony that she looks like a skeleton.

okay, i think some of you may have different opinion that being thin is still better than being fat. okay okay, sure you can think whatever you want. i had just shown you how being too thin can be too ugly. i just hope girls out there, dont starve themselves to reach this stage! if there is such a thing as getting-stuffed-up-by-fats plastic surgery, then yes, i will surely recommend these skinny ones to go for it! but sadly, i dont hear anything like this before...anyone who knows of this such thing does exit or not? if yes, just come up right front of me and tell me straight to my face, my ass!

wahahaha.

and one more thing, to all overweight people out there, please dont be offended by my words. you may find them sarcastic but i meant well. you are unique no matter how big and heavy you are. someday if you are determined, you can really lose weight with strict and faithful daily diet! most importantly, do keep your BMI in check! i sincerely wish all the best of the best especially to bee, nam and kam! they are big sized people but they are really nice fellows! i strongly believe one day they will become as small as us! they will be even more beautiful if they were much smaller BUT for now, they are very cute and adorable in their current size! i mean it. i bear no grudge against big sized people. no worries. i will still love them to bits! haha.

eh, bee, nam and kam, no offense taken ok! i care about u guys and definitely believe u guys actually beautiful in your own way! ;p

SCHOOL

first day of school but last term of school.

how should i start with? okay let me start with this morning.

i was actually alert the whole night before; i chatted online with peeps. there's something inside me which very much wants to run away from the reality of school starting already. i know i know i'm being naive by having this kind of attitude, but stil, tell me, who doesnt have this attitude?

no doubt.

and when my peep finally sorta succumbed into the reality of having to sleep and get ready for school the next day, i was left alone to digest the fact of school. SCHOOL again! aarrrrgh. so offline she was. i forced myself to switch off the pc. i was actually very bored, i kept on looking for online games which aroused my interest and to distract myself from fucked up portfolio! finally i managed to complete it and i occupied myself with silly online games, refusing to bow to the fact of school! but...haiz. i still bowed down to it in the end and went to sleep as usual - 3am. i couldn't sleep straight away and i honestly dont know how i fell asleep!

a nudge woke me up with irritation in early morning. it was from my mother who had gotten up early religiously everyday for work. then i just went back to sleep automatically. i guess she knows my sleeping pattern and had given up hope on me already!

next was my grandma who gave me a harder nudge and i woke up real good this time but again, i gave into tiredness and the comfort of my bed made it even harder to resist. it was already nearly 8am then.

a few minutes later, my eyes suddenly opened fully and i remembered school starts at 8am! so i jus dragged myself out of bed, cursing the school with endless foul words.

then i had to fall asleep in the bus while waiting for nazi's reply.

woke up feeling so blur and unstable. aiyah, just woke up will be like that what la. walked slowly towards studio and sat down and talked a little to nazi who was doing her portfolio. i just watched, not being aware of time until she mentioned 10am which is so early. yeah right, sooo goddamn early for i usually would be in bed snoring away at that time.

well, it's what school life is all about. time seems to be the main factor affecting us so much. right now i'm bored hence this senseless blogging.

*yawn*

BOREDOM

i aint into blogging nowadays.

and to make it seem worse, today is the last day of vacation. yes, there's goddamned darned portfolio to do! oh well, i spent most of my time staying at home, hanging out with old pals to do some much needed catching up and not to forget my guy whom i dated with during weekend!

honestly i do enjoy vacations very much to an unlimited extent as one can just do whatever crap one desires to. however one can die of boredom. ahhh, i suddenly don't want to talk further on this senseless topic. hahaha.

oh and i happened to come across my pals' blogs and chanced upon this cute IQ test! i thought it was gonna be somewhat interesting and unique, however while doing it, my brain was really doing some serious exercise! i didn't think i would encounter such mathematical questions which required some brain exercise activity. all i thought was the questions which would test your wits in an easy humourous way? haha. i must say i was really doing my brain some good! as i have not done proper sums like the ones in secondary school for a very long time. hence my brain had grown very rusty as i find myself calculating slower than my younger brother, who is currently studying in business course in SP. oh my god. i felt like losing face! but thanks to this IQ test, it gained me an upper hand over him who got some points lower than mine! now let's see if he dares belittle my slow calculation! hahaha.

hmm, before i took this test, i expected it to be about 120plus as i had taken one back in primary school. i can still remember the experience which took place in a big room (i was small in size that time so the room was big to me) and i was greeted by a indian plump woman in her late thirties to early forties. she led me to a table and a chair to sit down, instructing me to do a paper test of 40 questions within 45 minutes. i can't really remember if it was 40 questions within 45 minutes, but i recall that while doing the test, i was literally shaking with nervousness, my palms were cold and sweaty and the darned pencil kept on slipping out of my gripping hand! and there's that disguisting smudges on the paper made by my sweaty hand! the woman kept on staring at me grimly as if i had committed a grave mistake with that smudges. i also had that strong inevitable urge to shit! my stomach was like so tensed up and naturally triggered the feeling of wanting to shit! oh and i forgot to add that i actually perspired at my forehead! hahaha. really freaking nervous eh? it was such an unforgettable experience!

okay, i took another test for fun! here it is!

i don't know if this is true about me. but on second thought, it is perhaps quite true on the statement about my ability to make new friends and expand my social network. i do find that, making new friends is a breeze to me. i'm easy-going, i admit. haha. oh yes, i also did another silly test for fun!

haha, so this is so true in my real life eh? yes it's very true man. very accurate huh? it seems that i really love taking such tests eh? maybe out of boredom or for the fun of it!

i shall end here then!

RAIN EXPERIENCE

supp guys!!

i was away from blogging for some time. i was enjoying my holidays then.

wild partying with peeps yet busy with holiday assignment. man. it's christmas today! hahaha. so i guess everyone must have been partying wildly past few days? perhaps to say, shopping like mad, grabbing the big discounts? must be man.

just to share a little something here.

yesterday i went to my usss sch mate's birthday bash with my best friend and other two guys who we haven't keep in contact for so long. we met them and had hard time finding stupid shuttle bus to ahola chalet! oh man. it was raining then. we even had to run to catch the shuttle bus when one of us found out that shuttle bus goes to our destination! so we were like overtaking each other while running in the rain.

i was the only one lagging behind as i was wearing goddamned slippers! hahaha, i was like trying my best to secure my foot safely onto the wet ground with water puddles gingerly, not caring how cold the water puddles splashed upon my heavy steps, gracefully flowing all over my whole foot! it sure felt so cold! but it was absolutely fun running in the rain without an umbrella! i was just chuckling away softly to myself. and yes, we finally rested our drenched bodies in the shuttle bus! on the way, we were chatting away and kept on looking out for the chalet.

at last we reached the place but again, we had a hard time tracking down the block unit number in the rain. again, i didnt know that i stepped so heavily onto the water puddle when i was busy trying to squeeze myself under the umbrella which my best friend was holding then. then yes man, my foot was washed cold into the deep water puddle! it felt as if i was at a beach with seawater flowing over my foot up to my ankles! oh my gawd. i was already drenched!

then we tracked down the exact block unit number of the chalet and were greeted by the birthday gal. then we went in and made ourselves home. afterwards it was quite boring...just the usual chatting. then we went home at night. actually we missed the last shuttle bus so we got a lift from my ex-teacher's sons who drove us and dropped us at places near our respective homes.

well, i guess that the party bash was quite boring as i dont know the birthday gal well. she invited me and my best friend on account of my ex-teacher. but it's alright. at least i enjoyed the rain experience! hehe.

LAST CRIT

hmmm.

just felt like sharing something which i've experienced for the last time in my life. my last crit.

it went alright, in fact it was much shorter compared to all of my previous crits, lasting at least twenty mins. it was barely twenty minutes, it was only about between ten and fifteen minutes. i wrote so much about my concept and its elaborations, just to receive little questions and massive comments.

usually i would be questioned more than receiving comments. however this time, they seemed to understand my concept easily when they commented on this and that, tallying with my concept. their few questions were merely on the areas which they wanted to know, like what areas in which positions and the circulation. i could answer all questions easily with my own stand and thankfully, when i was wanting to illustrate my reasons, my panels had the pictures as if it was god-sent to support my reasons. in fact, this didn't happen in my previous crits! i must say that i was lucky this time! hehe.

*thank you, my lucky star for giving me what i needed to back up my explanations*

and i don't know why the lecturers are alot more lenient than before. well, let me trace back our conversations...

martin: ramp stepping up or going down then will reach the film area or suicide area?
me: *pauses for a second, kinda puzzled why he asked that question* ramp stepping up to film area then another ramp going down will reach suicide. *shows him the partial model*

puay toon: *speaks to me while tracing out the area on my panel* is this RAN? is this suicide? is this films area?
me: *nods my head and says yes very softly everytime*

martin: are these the materials? *points to the perspective on my panel*
me: *shows him the puzzled look*
puay toon: oh, he means that, where are your materials?
me: oh! *shows both of them my material board*
martin: yes yes... * looks at material board and goes mumbling okok*

olivia: *cuts in puay toon's conversation abit abruptly* peilan, where are your details from?
puay toon: *he thought i didn't understand so he wrote on white board, asking me for the details source*
me: *shows them the details from the floor plan*

chinleng: *nudges me gently, asking to see my 2 models which i had been holding on for explanation*
me: *hands him the models gingerly, glad to have free hands as i was kinda struggling to hold them while explaining via writing on white board and gesture same time*

olivia: ok, but is your screen a screen or a wall? how thick?
me: ah...no not screen...a wall, 50mm thick.
olivia: 50mm only? wall? so thin? *bursts into laughter, influencing martin and puay toon to chuckle at me* no, it should be 100mm thick wall...

alexis: *cuts into olivia's conversation* is your "screen" actually a gypsum board?
me: oh yes, that's the one!
alexis: olivia, her screen is actually a gypsum board!
olivia: oh! peilan, u can use 9mm, 12mm or 16mm thick gypsum board not 50mm thick! *laughs again*
me: *giggles sheepishly and nods same time*

chinleng: your circulation is very good and clear, but too many walls for panels display. later people will get dizzy when they turn around and around... *pretends to shift his head and act dizzy, then bursts into laughter with olivia, puay toon, martin and alexis who had been listening to him all this while*
me: *giggles at chinleng's humourous act*
puay toon: i agree with chin leng, too many walls...*still chuckling*
me: *nods while giggling*

olivia: ok, finished... *the rest went back to their seats*

alexis: *hands me the notes-taking paper and smiles smugly* (it's because yixian supposed to be my notes assistant but she didnt understand what was going on so i had to record down all the comments made by lecturers on the white board)

well, i handed alexis the notes-taking paper after recording down and packed everything with a light heart and i was just slacking around watching wee soon's crit when my guy smsed me that he just ended school! it was only 3.30pm i guess. so early man. it added to my light mood and i headed down to catch him at macs and went home together!

hahaha. what a light-hearted day it was for me!

HELLO GUYS

hellloooo guys!

well, i bet that some of you who used to frequent my blog, must have left already...no longer a fan of my blog eh? *sad*

hahaha. okay man, i know i know i haven't blogged a very long time since the launch of T3B! yeah man, i tell u, i was in no mood to blog then.

i was very busy with the T3B then. yeah man, i had given up on T3B, i jus did everything within my means to at least fulfil the basic requirements. oh well, i really hate this stupid clifford pier project man. it just sucks big time!

and to this stupid fool who invented this clifford pier project, please, don't u think u came up with a lousy project for us to work on?

did u even do research on this clifford per?

did u even think how good it gonna do to us?

did u ever tried putting yourself in our smelly shoes?!

did you even try to come over to classes and checked on our work progress?

did u even tried to help us by not changing the submission requirements anytime you wished?

did you ever consider our difficulty when you just posted that stupid bloody last minute submission changes about panels and tod on SUNDAY the day before submission?!

did u ever thought how inefficient you can be in your capacity as a lecturer?!

did u ever try to understand our work?!

let me answer all the following questions - the answer is an obvious NO.

you failed your job as a lecturer, honestly.

u made us hate you to the core, cursing you till we couldn't find any worse words to curse you to death, we couldn't even fight back knowing that you would be the winner in the end by changing submission requirements anytime, you were never in the right, we had more than enough of u all this while. just shut up for once will u?! stop making submission changes anytime! but alas, u can't do it to us anymore as we will be leaving soon. boohooo!

a good thing is that we won't be seeing your god damned goldfish face so soon.

and good luck to these future younger DID batches who will be under him.

eh, did i sound too childish? hahaha. i heck care.

PSYCHO

i should be sleeping right now u know? well, i dont know why im still awake. perhaps this gotta do with the habit of staying awake every night.

recently i had been keeping late nights till wee hours around 3-4am. and oh yes, 4am is the time which few people get up from bed for work.

duh, why on the earth do i say this, or even talk about it? no reason through. just being random.

right now i know i haven't blogged for some time and it's already irregular while my other peeps keep on updating theirs daily faithfully. okay, it makes me ponder. what, where, when, which and how the goddamned hell did they ever find time for their own daily rumblings?!

wait a half-second, i aint mad at them, okay. i was just cursing at the fact that they seem more free than me.

everyone is tired. so am i.

i sense it everyday especially when im at that bloody fuckin studio. however they dont seem exhausted as anticipated. instead they are either slogging away like mad or slacking away like as if there's tons of endless tomorrows for them.

and i just realised that im kinda into this psycho-philosophical state very recently. very soon, i will be fully into this mode. well, let me cite a very good example here. i actually cut small triangular-like holes of every arc stand of clifford pier, concourse. hahahaha. there, i told u yeah? that im gonna be psycho soon. honestly, let me clarify this fact with you guys - before i cut those small holes, i didnt think it was a need then. i simply auto-functioned. like auto cut whatever i see to be holes in the concourse.

psycho. pscho. psycho. oh did i miss out the "y" in the second word "pscho"? duh.

what the fuck had actually happened?

of course, i just laughed at my own true psycho-ness on the spot when my peeps pointed out to me that i cut those mini holes like mad. i think its cool to be psycho-ed.

ah! some of you would think it aint cool or whatever shit your wonderful human brain can come up with, simply to describe it.

there, didnt i tell u? that im falling into full-time psycho mode soon and naturally will say such "cool-psycho" stuffs.

o well. let me grab some sleep for now before i continue to function psycho mode afterwards, okay?